On Motherhood & Sanity


Thursday, June 19, 2014

Silent resilience and humble rebellion



“you fell!” I say worried.

“but I got to see the beauty in the ground up close. A myriad of tiny beings working hard without questioning the world and their role in it. Confident that their efforts will make a difference ” He responds.


“you lost” I say saddened.

“yes” he responds, “but I got to learn from my mistakes and that made me grow. Like a branch that finds a path out through a window. As a result of life's limitations I have grown unique”


“Your heart’s been broken” I say angry

“yes, but now I have many pieces that I can look after. Each of them will grow and learn to love in a different way” he smiles


“no matter how old you grow, you will never die” I say.

“ Your smile and your heart will continue to shine upon those fortunate to know you. The falls will be banished to oblivion, the bruises have made you better than what was lost. Silent resilience and humble rebellion. Your willingness to fall has made you invincible. All that you’ve selflessly shared will rise from the ashes and live on”


“I know” he responds

Monday, June 16, 2014

time slipping like sand through my hands.... May family self portrait

Cape Cod


Blow time capsules of grainy images
Into the winds of time. Disrupt the mind
From its binary tracks of habitual
Churning of rational reasons. Open
The heart to scents and sensational blues
Of stark northen oceans and frail whispy
Dunes. Remembrances of past vacations
Dislocated, rearranged as future
Forshadowings of sensuous freedom
In time. Breathe the pleasures of towering pines.

Squinting, staring up, and taking in space.
Cosmocologies of sand and water.
Our urbane nature disappearing in

The landscapes of the cape. Roll deep. Today.



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The family self portrait  project started in January 2011. 
I take one portrait of the whole family, myself included, once a month.  
The poem is a 2013 addition by a "ghost" writer

Every family should do this. 

In late 2013 a "ghost" writer joined the initiative and now each photo is accompanied by a poem.

To see previous months click on the links below:


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